*Pillow talk*: 2011

Master's gathering

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Last night was the first time in my entire year here that I had a gathering with my fellow coursemates.

The venue was a classy Italian restaurant by the port =)

usual vain shot in the car xD

we were paranoid that we wouldn't be able to find the place so we set out to leave the house early and...

unexpectedly we arrived half an hour earlier swt.

the place wasn't that hard to find afterall.

housemate gladly volunteers to help me take pics when there are nice backgrounds lol.

after a while, the sun started to set so housemate got the idea of shooting silhouettes.

i like the next one!

housemate's idea of a pic inside a pic

the original pic I took in my phone LOL.

I must say...why my housemate so talented and creative one har?

Later when all the ladies arrived we settled down for our banquet style dinner.

No pics of the food because I was busy eating and figuring out what I'm putting into my mouth haha wtf.

Honestly, I have no idea what half the menu was about. The only thing I recognised was olive and risotto @.@

And dessert was tiramisu and chocolate mousse xD

I eventually found out from my coursemate beside me that I've been eating veal and some roll up pasta with ham and spinach lol.

the only pic I have of dinner, still waiting for more group pics from coursemate.
btw, left is Lauren and right is Clair =) both are very funny and intelligent ladies.

went bar hopping for thre first time in Brissy after that. not gonna talk much about it but I notice that the girls here really dress pretty and look pretty for night outs!

Makes me feel so... ordinary, sigh.

ok lah, no time for self-pity T____T

I'll be emersing myself in clinic work for the next 2 weeks! Trying my best to close up all my cases before I head home for my holiday~

Boyfie will be picking me up from the airport, can't wait! =)

Another trip up north

Saturday, November 12, 2011

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And so...we decided that we wanted more of the north coast so this weekend we loitered around the Westfield mall in Northlakes.

Going to the mall only means one thing in my dictionary =)

Even though I always refer to what I do as "damage" but honestly, I've never been able to buy so many gorgeous stuff at such low cost.

Shopping back home will never bring me the same satisfaction anymore, le sigh.

what I wore on that day. Super love this dress because of the back-design xD
and it's made of thin and comfy material, perfect for the weather now.

the 2 new additions to my wardrobe *heart*

Went to Woodypoint to catch the sunset after that =)

I has a housemate with good photography skills *glee*

Counting down the days till the real holidays come :(

Road trip!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

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Since the first year of our Masters is finally over, housemate and I decided to have a mini road trip to the Sunshine Coast!

We did't really prepare much to be honest. Just bought a fleece mat for 10 bucks and brought a bag of chips LOL.

camwhore sessions on the way xD

First stop was Eumandi Market where there were over 500 stalls selling handcrafts and some local goods. Didn't take alot of pics of the stalls because I was busy looking at stuffs heh.

that's my housemate cum bigbang and gossip girl kaki *hearts*

a banner with lots of cute sayings. can click the pic to enlarge!

puppets singing! the dude behind has strings tied to every limb of his body to move them @.@"

Gourmet calamari! so says the board haha. and it's actually quite yummy!

Saw a very old school merry-go-round that caught my attention =)

After that housemate brought us to the malls famous in the area.

And I did more damage to my wallet T___T

Haih seriously....I don't think I'll ever get bored of the shopping here. I MEAN LOOK AT THOSE DESIGNS!

I bought everything on me from Aussie, the top, the bikini, the skirt, the sandals!

Last stop we decided to try out our new fleece mat at the beach. Housemate and I were contemplating of buying a set of bucket and shovels for the beach but then we thought that we'd look a wee bit over-age to play with that haha.

saw Maxine's car!

the beach!! *kicks off sandals and runs!*

I spy someone fishing

the most relaxing sight ever =)

Felt good to have my feet in the waves =)

One year down and another to go...oh i'm hating and lurving this place much.

after the storm

Saturday, October 29, 2011

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"Say no more. I love you."

... just what I needed to hear when I feel that words are failing and everything is spinning out of control.

Such simple words. Such strong emotions.

Celebration!

Friday, October 28, 2011

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And the last assignment is INNNNNN!!!

No more sleepless nights, mountain-piled journals and headaches from all the stress!

oh my gosh I think I might have even lost some weight. I haven't been eating regular meals for the past 3 weeks :(

GIMME BACK MY FATS DAMNIT.

Anyways, housemate had the excellent idea to go to the nightmarket in Southbank and we had a yummy celebration there.

our cocktails!
mine is peach flavoured and housemate's one is orange-ey

ze housemate :D

me being vain (as usual)

BUGSSSSSS! *DROOL*

happy me =D

and we ended the night with this

*extreme lurve*
it's the boyfie's favourite flavour

1 more week to exams!! RAAWWWWRRR

3 months

Thursday, October 27, 2011

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Finally :')

The 3 months marker. Felt like it's been a year.

Long distance is really not easy. You don't get to hold the person, kiss him, go shopping together or have romantic dinners whenever you want to.

But everyday you still get to hear his voice, talk about how his day has been and know that he loves you so much no matter how far you are from him.

And that's just the most beautiful feeling to me now :)

I really do.

Counting down the days till I'm home again.

p/s: no laughing at my stickman drawing! that's like my most advanced drawing already sobs *sad*

staying in

Saturday, October 15, 2011

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It's odd that the simplest days are often your happiest days.

Yesterday was the last day of my assignment marathon! I slept in until late morning today and woke up to boyfie's Facetime call. I can't describe how happy and giddy I was finally seeing his face through the screen of my iPhone :)

I'm still suffering from withdrawal ever since I came back after my mid-sem break. Le sigh.

After that, I had brunch and hung out in the living room with housemate. We talked about downloading horror films and it was so funny! We went from the initial ghost movies to psychopath-related horror and in the end chickened out because we both had overactive imaginations and started worrying if we would see some weird stuffs in our house LOL.

And for once I did something different today. Today, I decided to take a break from the lappie and started reading again =)

It was the most relaxing sensation ever.

Reading words and sentences that are for once fictional and interesting and not serious or work-related.

I is liking it =)

In the evening, the sky started to turn gloomy and the next thing we know the roof sounded as if it was about to tumble!

Hail storm!

Housemate and I got our keys and jacket and went down to see if we could collect the tiny ice cubes that might have dropped on the floor (housemate's idea not mine haha). Ran into our neighbour and it was such a funny sight seeing him seeping coffee in his running attire and staring at the rain.

Anyways, the ice melted and housemate was disappointed we didn't get to keep any LOL.

That was my boring and uneventful but extremely contented day :)

what have I done?

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

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What have I gotten myself into.

I've been feeling extremely emo these few days.

I really think I'm in the wrong field.

How now?

life as it is at the moment

Monday, September 19, 2011

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ASSIGNMENTS ARE MY BIGGEST ENEMY.

They make me groan and stress and sleep deprived whenever the due date is looming near.

I could even feel a heavy weight on my chest and it was so suffocating I wanted to throw up. Talk about anxiety turned bad.

I've been frantically working over my adult intervention assignment since Monday and the journals are so hell-bent to hide from me that it took me countless sleepless nights just to get all the materials I need!

After that it was taking all my brain power to piece and thread all the information together to produce a quality review. But with the speed I was moving I found myself working like a mad cow in the library until the very last minute of the due date =.="

I wonder if it's us Chinese being kiasu or what, but my coursemate passed up her assignment at 2k words even though the word limit was 3k and there I was trying my best to flush as many words as I can into the essay to make it hit the number "3" at the word count =.="

WHY WE ASIANS SO KIASU HAR?? WHY AH?

I made the 3k words alright. And made a mad dash to throw the assignment in before they closed the door to the department.

A wave of exhilaration just washed over us after housemate and I dropped our assignments into the pigeon hole and we felt so relieved!

Housemate started laughing uncontrollably and I was infected too. I swear everyone who saw us thought we were insane.

All these stress-induced keesiao-ness just for an assignment!?! Yes I also think we have no life, haih.

Both of us laughed all the way to the car and hopped in and drove straight to Mc D.

WE WANT REWARDS!

We bought ice cream and relaxed while we nom-ed on our reward. And after that we flew home to drop our stuffs and zoomed out again to the nearest liquor store before it closed.

Housemate got beer and I got myself a bottle of Vodka.

After that, we treated ourselves to Thai food at a newly opened restaurant in our suburb. Food was so-so but housemate and I were too delirious to notice the food quality because ASSIGNMENT WAS OVER!

The last thing we did was to have a toast back home and sat back on the sofa to watch gossip girl.

It's funny how post-assignment effects can make two absolutely sane person go gaga for a moment. As much as we despise the grief assignments bring, nothing can compare to that exhilarating feeling you get the moment you place your assignment through that pigeon hole.

Assignments. Beer. and Gossip Girl.

This is life for me now. And I'm happy =)

Skyped with boyfie after celebration. + another happy!

you made me smile

Sunday, September 18, 2011

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sometimes housemate just leaves the most amusing drawings around XD

woke up this morning and housemate was out to mow a friend's lawn.

i'll never get bored of her cute notes lol.

a pleasant surprise

Monday, September 12, 2011

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Mom just called me to tell me boyfie dropped by to pass her some mooncake earlier.

It was so unexpected I was really surprised.

He's been on the phone with me few times today but he never mentioned anything about it. We were even just talking 30 minutes before he went over to my place!

As I'm typing he's still at work. Everyday he's been doing over time until midnight that he doesn't even have time for himself or his family! How sad is that :(
I was really shocked that he actually took the effort to leave office for a while and drove all the way to my place to pass the mooncake he bought from Equatorial Hotel earlier today to my family and returned to work.

Yes, he even placed much thought into getting quality moonccakes and not the commercial ones. How crazy is that??? I always just settled for dai tong or kam lun tai swt.

To be honest none of my exes have ever been so thoughtful.Not to say so caring and considerate that they will attend to my family even when I'm not around. This really makes me think what kind of guys have I been dating? seriously.

Sometimes the most simple gesture to show you you're not forgotten can really warm your heart...even though we're oceans apart.

Tell me how can I not fall for this boy? ♥

consequences of procrastinating

Sunday, September 11, 2011

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IT'S ALMOST 3 P.M. HERE AND I'M STILL STUCK IN THE LIBRARY DOING WORK AND DEPRIVED OF LUNCH.

why is it so easy to spend hours on fb and twitter and so tormenting to just spend 10 minutes writing a paragraph on my assignment? :'(

oh god, please let me re-wire my brain in times of need.

I am conducting a classic extrinsic motivation scheme on myself now where I will only receive a reward (lunch) after I have achieved my goal (finish covering atleast 2 disorders required in the paper).

FOOD IS WHAT MOTIVATES ME TO DO WORK NOOOWWW.

I truly wonder if anyone is born hardworking or does everyone go through the same struggle as me? I find myself doing this more and more often these days where I would deprive myself of a meal until I manage to reach a certain point in my assignment. In return, I do produce work at the end of the day (most of the time) and I've also managed to mess up my meals.

Oh boy.

Sometimes I don't even take breakfast, end up having lunch at 4 p.m. and eating dinner at 9. Dinner becomes optional in the end because I'm not even hungry but I still maintain my food intake to not lose whatever precious fats I have left in me.

OK lah, I am obviously writing here to avoid work again. Back to boring assignments *drops head on table*

counting down the hours

Monday, September 5, 2011

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He'll be back today. Finally ♥

We've been surviving on hotel wifis and roaming for the past 2 weeks.

In my past relationships I've been so accustomed to being alone when they're away that I didn't mind if he didn't contacted me throughout the trip. Because I thought that's how it should be and that's how I should take it.

But I'm glad he did. Every single day while he was away.

Previously, the others would come back with gifts, just to let me know that they still thought of me while they were travelling.

But I guess even luxurious gifts will never beat the effort one puts to stay in touch with you everyday =)

Mindy Gledhill's song has been on loop for a while

those 3 words

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

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I used to wonder what it would be like if someone would say "I love you" to me every hour of the day.

Would't it get boring?

Wouldn't the words lose their magic?

We know that too much of something is always not good. Too much money and it loses it's value. Too much attention and a person gets a false sense of self-worth. Too much make-up and you end up looking fake.

And so in the relationships before I always avoided saying "I love you" too much. I didn't want to flood my lover with too much love. I didn't want the words to lose their meaning one day.

I didn't want to seem clingy even though I do feel that way about the person every minute of the day.

It was as if I imposed a quota on how much love I should express in a day.

But now I do believe that these 3 words are the only thing in this world that will never lose their meaning no matter how often you say them.

Say them when you mean them and it will give the person you love the strength they need.

Even if it means every minute, every hour, or every day. Say them as long as you feel it and the words will grow in the person who receives them.

I wished for a person who would tell me he loved me every single day.

And I got more than what I bargained for.

Now I know what it's like to hear these words more often than I could ever imagine.

And I know that it is impossible to ever grow tired of them.

Thank you, for proving that to me.

I love you baby :)

post-assignment euphoria

Sunday, August 28, 2011

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oh the joy you feel when you hit that fullstop.

when you look at the bottom and you see there are 10 pages written.

and you know that one last check and it's awaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!

i am suffering from post-assignment euphoria at the moment. please excuse the dizziness.

boyfie is in Paris - the City of Love without meeeeeeeee!

and housemate has gone to GC to the themepark with her family.

boohoohoo.

sigh, so many feelings wanting to burst out from my chest but nobody is here :'(

a silent scream

Thursday, August 18, 2011

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The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

Don't worry I am not being emo. Just downloaded a new app on iPhone that does wonder to photo editing.

Add in a few words of emo song lyrics and voila!

Emo-ness you have :D

what breaks me

Saturday, August 13, 2011

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"You're not here when I need you most" is the worst thing you can say to someone who's suffering from the same distance.

Surviving the distance

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

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"Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."

Half-way mark

Saturday, July 30, 2011

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Woke up and house mate left me a note on the wall this morning

Isn't she cute?

Today officially marks our 6 months anniversary in Aussie land =)

One and a half more years to go baby.

beyond speechless

Sunday, June 19, 2011

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never in my whole life has a guy ever treated my parents so well.

never in my whole life has any guy cooked a decent meal for my parents and what more followed by dessert.

nothing fancy but all home cooked and tailored to suit my parents' taste.

and i never had to ask or request.

now i don't know to be happy or sad, that this guy isn't even related to me.

and he isn't even my boyfriend.

why can't the guys i choose to be with be like that?

June please be good

Sunday, June 12, 2011

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my favourite beanie at the moment :D

three more days and my parents will be here!

it feels so weird. for half a year I've been seeing them on the screen and now I'm wondering what it's like to see and hold them in flesh again.

This is what long distance does to you :(

and I'm at a stage where I'm trying to finalize which new blog name to use. There were a few good suggestions thanks to my ever lovely and creative friends ;)

1. purplehearts

2. fragilesnippets

3. purplepillow

4. fragilethoughts

If you notice there's a theme around here, one is my favourite colour and another one is the nick I used to go by :)

I'll probably change to the new one next month. Till then drop me a message if you happen to have any ideas! Thank you *mwaahh*

winter time

Thursday, June 9, 2011

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morning people, winter is here

and me no like it :(

wish

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

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i want a wedding picture like this :)

lose yourself

Sunday, May 29, 2011

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No matter how much you try to run away from it,

your past will always come back to haunt you.

Until you find that one person who is able to accept you despite all your wrong doings and imperfections.

And until then you will feel all lost and alone. Struggling just to keep that bit of sanity with you.

That little bit that will help keep you alive.

it's official

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

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it's decided...

that i will have to change my blog name for good :(

mainly because of the profession that i have chose to pursue.

i trust all my readers to help maintain my privacy and not put me at risk with what i've shared in my blog. so after a month I'll be changing the name of this blog for good. if you would still like to follow my blog please e-mail me or leave a message here so i can update you once i've changed the add?? :(

for now i'm still looking for ideas for a new name...anyone has any suggestions??

hmmm, maybe a few words that reminds you of me.

and i refuse to accept words like skinny =.="

thank you for the help people!! :D

just make a sound

Saturday, May 7, 2011

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sometimes,

i would just stare at the damn phone and wished that it would ring.

realization

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

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there was a time when i used to blog about anything and everything in my life,

i wanted to remember how my day went, which kind soul had bothered to help me, or what pissed me off and made me throw a fit.

and then i stopped.

maybe because there were just too many things i never wanted to recall again.

Drained

Sunday, May 1, 2011

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Is there such a time when you just lose all creative juices and motivation to blog?

So many things have happened and yet I find it so difficult to just sit down and pen down my thoughts. I used to be able to sit here for hours just uploading pictures into my photobucket account and arranging them here in a blog post :(

Oh zest...zest...where have you gone?

quarler life crisis

Friday, March 25, 2011

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i wonder if there's such thing as a quarter life crisis?

cause i definitely feel like i'm experiencing one.

it can be briefly defined as a feeling of impending doom marked with feelings of uncertainty and confusion of one's life goal and direction as one reaches the age of 25 in his or her life.

Symptoms may include:

1. constant brooding with unknown cause (or too many causes)
2. memory loss (includes information such as conversations, names, directions and location of car in the car park)
3. inability to walk up the flight of stairs leading to your office/unit (lift is the way!)
4. shortness of breathe when attempting minor housechores or simple exercises
5. feelings of uncertainty about one's life directions
6. overwhelming fear of the unknown future
7. hallucinations of marriage and family (for single souls)
8. increased intensity of loneliness

and so on so forth.

i am reaching a quarter of my lifespan and i have no idea what i am doing and what i am aiming for.

INSPIRATION AND MOTIVATION COME TO MEEEEEEEEEE.

this...sucks.

suggestions/additions to the list are welcome if you are suffering from the same syndrome.

thank you

Thursday, March 17, 2011

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as much as i resent all the shit that's been happening in my life, i still thank god for all the angels he has placed by my side.

eventhough they seem to change with every phase of my life, i will remember all the kind and thoughtful gestures that they've done for me.

to all of you who've been there for me and even though we may not contact each other anymore,

thank you for always being thoughtful and delivering food to me after classess

thank you for putting up with my immaturity

thank you for making me feel special on every special occasion

thank you for your serenades when i couldn't sleep

thank you for driving me around even when you didn't have to

thank you for all the calls and msgs that have sustained me through the hardest days

thank you for being so attentive all the time when i've been so inconsiderate

thank you for the haagen daaz and you, for the baskin robbins to cheer me up

thank you for the random moments you would call and play the keyboard for me

thank you for being there for me silently even though i knew it was difficult for you

thank you for your sms-es from overseas just to cheer me up

thank you for your understanding

and thank you all for being part of me.

bad day

Sunday, March 6, 2011

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the title says it all.

i woke up late this morning to do my laundry so when i finally finished and headed out the bus just passed the stop and i was about 150 meters away from it. some people would have suggested to dash and wave but i think it's a bad idea considering that i was in heels ( owh, which reminds me that my flats got flooded from the 24 hour rain the day before FML).

ended up walking extra 15 minutes to the train and walking another 20 minutes to church once i got off.

didn't really enjoy the service and shall not elaborate here haih.

after that i reached home only to find my laundry SCATTERED everywhere on the balcony and the highlight of it all was that some actually flew into my neighbour's backyard WTF. i immediately went down to retrieve the poor clothes but neighbour was out so i went back and saved whatever i could and dumped them into the machine again.

as i was waiting for my neighbour to return, i texted my friend and asked to skype but mana tau we ended up arguing and needless to say the conversation ended with both parties feeling upset and angry.

and now my room is filled with laundry that's overdosed with detergent because wanting to clean off the dirt i cleverly poured too much detergent into the washing machine.

FML.

love, from aussie

Friday, February 4, 2011

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things i like about aussie:

the shopping
uni campus
the roads and infrastructure
the phone plans

things i dislike about aussie:

the attitude of people in the service line
the difficulty of renting or even viewing a damn house
the scorching sun
NO FREE WIFI
nothing comes for free, even sauce for your meals
the constant walking

but then again, i've only been here for a week.

give kangaroo land a chance. i miss malaysia already *sigh*

will try to upload more pics and blog more once i settle my internet. and there's no such thing as unlimited bandwidth so my skype plan is screwed =(

dumb luck

Thursday, January 6, 2011

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TWICE in a day i knocked over different bottles and almost sent them plummeting into the toilet bowl and TWICE they bounced off the toilet seat.

what random dumb luck i have, swt.

Happy Day

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when you're lazy and you wanna keep you blog alive you post other people's work of you on your blog.

nah, here's a recent photoshoot of mine:

pic and video credit to Leng Paul ;)

yes...i'm lazy i know :(

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