i hate this part right here

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

8:12 AM | 3 Comments

i hate that i'm being forgotten.

i hate that i'm so insecure.

i hate that i let you define me.

i hate that i feel so helpless when i'm alone.

i hate that every sense of happiness slips away so quickly after one day.

i hate that we can never reach a consensus.

lost. that's how i feel now.

bitter and lost.

an answer. is all i need.

just one word. to make me feel safe again.


i hate myself now.







... all we do is linger...
...slipping through my fingers...

goodbye

Monday, May 18, 2009

2:43 AM | 5 Comments

... seems to be the hardest word.

i'm bidding my freedom goodbye.

i'm bidding my afternoon naps goodbye.

i'm bidding my bumming ass goodbye.

missy is officially starting work as off tomorow =)

I'll be working in an mnc company located in Kota Damansara. not going to disclose too much information here but i'll tell you if we happen to meet up/catch up :D

working hours are from 9 to 6. i can no longer sleep at 3 am and wake up at 2 pm. finally my life is in order again. aaahhh.

it's funny how i've been looking forward to get a job, to feel productive or to feel as if i'm occupied. this one year of bumming has made me restless, aimless and lonely...since everyone else is busy with work, except for me =(

but now that everything is confirmed and i'm starting work tomorrow, i feel...reluctant.

VERY reluctant to leave my comfy zone.

i wonder if everyone feels the same when they started their first job?

suddenly i miss uni life so much.

no more blackberry or iphone days for me.
the pay was good.
damn it.
sigh.

i'll try to update about my aussie trip when i can, preparing to party my last night of freedom for now :p

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