life is getting sadder by the minute

Monday, November 19, 2007

6:18 PM | 4 Comments

sorry if i scared you with my previous post.

a girl can be emo. tee hee.

internship is gonna end in another week! (SO HAPPY!)

throughout these 3 months i've seen and learn alot from both places. what really upsets me is the politics at work =.=

there were complaints about me being LCLY and not doing my job.

DAMN SPEECHLESS.

there was a big hoo haa and i thank god people who know me realized that that statement could never be me.

just damn disappointed with the one who started this. i wander what's wrong with the fella =.=

let's hope there's karma.

now i'm interning full time in my uni's clinic for the last few weeks and the patients are streaming in...which means workload is increasing *stress*

so far i've had the chance to assess brain injury patients and children too. which gives me a better perspective of what i'm getting into in the future. it also helps polish up my knowledge on things because i have to read up on things like brain anatomy, the functions of amygdala, hippocampus..etc, which lobe controls speech, what kind of children disorders are there...yada yada.

it's overwhelming.

i feel like my life has been filled up with brains and scary kids these past few weeks T___T

NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

i wanna go SEXPO like suelin or dress up for halloween parties like joey!

i know work life is also life but it still feels like i have no life anymore.

you get what i mean? :(

I AM YOUNG AND FULL OF ENERGY BUT GLUED TO AN OFFICE CHAIR!

sangat sad.

and when i'm sad i go for retail therapy.

which leads me to my next problem...

i'm broke :(

which leads me to my solution...

i'm working in december. in starhill for a watch and jewellery exhibition.

ENDLESS STREAM OF WORK~

i need sayang :'(

i broke down in the hallway...

Sunday, November 18, 2007

6:45 PM | 2 Comments

i stared longingly at my mom's car as she drove off towards the distance.

the familiar scent of her car reminded me of home.

at that moment, i just wanted to jump into her car when she passed me my office keys.

i want to go home.

so badly that i could feel my nose turning sour.

my vision started to blur and i could hear myself sobbing.

quickly, i turned and walked back towards the foyer.

breezing through the hallway, my head was down the whole time, trying to avoid eye-contact with the people i passed by.

if anyone saw me now they must think that i'm insane, clutching a bunch of keys with teary eyes.

my day started off wrong since 1 a.m.- the very 1st hour of today.

and here i am sitting in my office feeling dead and tired.

and emo.

i hope it's the hormones,

or maybe the cut on my feet,

perhaps the sleepless night,

not forgetting the never ending work load and politics,

and the bucket of tears i shed every week.

maybe it's just me... losing grip.

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