consequences of procrastinating

Sunday, September 11, 2011

9:45 PM | 2 Comments

IT'S ALMOST 3 P.M. HERE AND I'M STILL STUCK IN THE LIBRARY DOING WORK AND DEPRIVED OF LUNCH.

why is it so easy to spend hours on fb and twitter and so tormenting to just spend 10 minutes writing a paragraph on my assignment? :'(

oh god, please let me re-wire my brain in times of need.


I am conducting a classic extrinsic motivation scheme on myself now where I will only receive a reward (lunch) after I have achieved my goal (finish covering atleast 2 disorders required in the paper).

FOOD IS WHAT MOTIVATES ME TO DO WORK NOOOWWW.

I truly wonder if anyone is born hardworking or does everyone go through the same struggle as me? I find myself doing this more and more often these days where I would deprive myself of a meal until I manage to reach a certain point in my assignment. In return, I do produce work at the end of the day (most of the time) and I've also managed to mess up my meals.

Oh boy.

Sometimes I don't even take breakfast, end up having lunch at 4 p.m. and eating dinner at 9. Dinner becomes optional in the end because I'm not even hungry but I still maintain my food intake to not lose whatever precious fats I have left in me.


OK lah, I am obviously writing here to avoid work again. Back to boring assignments *drops head on table*

counting down the hours

Monday, September 5, 2011

7:11 PM | 0 Comments



He'll be back today. Finally ♥

We've been surviving on hotel wifis and roaming for the past 2 weeks.

In my past relationships I've been so accustomed to being alone when they're away that I didn't mind if he didn't contacted me throughout the trip. Because I thought that's how it should be and that's how I should take it.

But I'm glad he did. Every single day while he was away.

Previously, the others would come back with gifts, just to let me know that they still thought of me while they were travelling.

But I guess even luxurious gifts will never beat the effort one puts to stay in touch with you everyday =)


Mindy Gledhill's song has been on loop for a while




those 3 words

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

7:26 AM | 2 Comments

I used to wonder what it would be like if someone would say "I love you" to me every hour of the day.



Would't it get boring?



Wouldn't the words lose their magic?



We know that too much of something is always not good. Too much money and it loses it's value. Too much attention and a person gets a false sense of self-worth. Too much make-up and you end up looking fake.



And so in the relationships before I always avoided saying "I love you" too much. I didn't want to flood my lover with too much love. I didn't want the words to lose their meaning one day.



I didn't want to seem clingy even though I do feel that way about the person every minute of the day.





It was as if I imposed a quota on how much love I should express in a day.





But now I do believe that these 3 words are the only thing in this world that will never lose their meaning no matter how often you say them.





Say them when you mean them and it will give the person you love the strength they need.



Even if it means every minute, every hour, or every day. Say them as long as you feel it and the words will grow in the person who receives them.





I wished for a person who would tell me he loved me every single day.



And I got more than what I bargained for.





Now I know what it's like to hear these words more often than I could ever imagine.



And I know that it is impossible to ever grow tired of them.





Thank you, for proving that to me.



I love you baby :)

post-assignment euphoria

Sunday, August 28, 2011

9:37 PM | 0 Comments

oh the joy you feel when you hit that fullstop.



when you look at the bottom and you see there are 10 pages written.



and you know that one last check and it's awaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy!!







i am suffering from post-assignment euphoria at the moment. please excuse the dizziness.







boyfie is in Paris - the City of Love without meeeeeeeee!



and housemate has gone to GC to the themepark with her family.



boohoohoo.







sigh, so many feelings wanting to burst out from my chest but nobody is here :'(

a silent scream

Thursday, August 18, 2011

2:33 AM | 0 Comments







The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core







Don't worry I am not being emo. Just downloaded a new app on iPhone that does wonder to photo editing.



Add in a few words of emo song lyrics and voila!



Emo-ness you have :D

what breaks me

Saturday, August 13, 2011

12:46 AM | 0 Comments

"You're not here when I need you most" is the worst thing you can say to someone who's suffering from the same distance.

Surviving the distance

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

12:41 AM | 1 Comments





"Contrary to what the cynics say, distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough."



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