因为太在意你， 结果失去了自己。。。
我决定放手了。。。让自己再呼吸
let me let go this time, will you? =)
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now that i've got that off my chest, here's a little update about what i've been reading lately.
adorable sial right!??
i bought this book before i boarded the plane to aussie. thought it would make a good companion during sleepless nights or long bus rides but have only gotten about to read it after i got back.
the movie arrived in the cinemas earlier last month and i watched it before i read the book.
needless to say, i cried during the movies.
i started tearing before john even reached the part where marley collapsed for the last time in the book because i knew what was coming.
my heart thawed and i dreaded to flip to the next page.
the book is still on the table where i left it. it was difficult...but i've already braced through the part where he had to let marley go. next, would be chapters of loss and grief.
sigh.
we, humans, are surprisingly vulnerable when it comes to our pets.
i'm not sure if i have the courage to do the same when the time comes.
maxine has been with me for 5 years now...this year will be the sixth =/
when maxine first came i used to keep a diary to record her everyday activities, these were the first two entries...original and unedited:
"Nov 29, 2003, 3:31 PM
Bought maxine home on the 26th, little fella simply pee and poo make me mop the floor the whole day. At night that time she cried like there's no tomorrow and this continued for another night until my pa came up with a method to keep her quiet( just hit her house with a loud 'KONG" then she'll keep queit, at least for a while till she gets the message)
Now's the 3rd day maxine's been here. lil fella likes to explore everywhere and she learnt how to climb the stairs but doesn't know how to come back down.
her left hind leg is limping a bit. i'm afraid she might have hurt her leg when she tried to jump up and down the stairs.
Took her to the vet but the vet said that she's perfetly fine and asked me to observe her for another week. will be bringing her back to the vet for her 2nd jab next week.
Maxine also loves to sleep on my thighs or in between my thighs when i sit with my legs crossed, guess that she wants some body warmth. but most of the time she'll just sit on the marble floor, wonder if it's ok for her to sleep on something so cold?
and she loves to eat newspapers too, which i think is kind of like a big problem."
haha omg i can't believe i used to write like that when i was in form5!! and lol my dad used to "KONG" her...no wonder she doesn't like to sleep in the house =/
anyway, here's entry 2:
"Dec 1, 2003, 11:45 AM
Maxine finally peed at the right place!! wa....after all these days training her now i feel so proud. accidents still happen but whenever we sit beside the newspaper and say 'potty' she'll come over and do her 'business'.
later, i'm gonna bring the lil fella to have her 1st bath after a whole week! we couldn't bath her for a week cause the doc told us not to.
lil maxine still cries in the night. maybe cause she wanted to poo but she didn't wanna do it in her house. so tonight i might be camping downstairs with her so i can let her out to poo and put her back to sleep. hope this works cause my parents haven't been getting any sleep lately.
After being with her this few days, i found out that my lil fella has 4 type of modes:-
1st is the explore mode, she'll walk and climb all over the house and sniff sniff everywhere. Whenever she walks around she'll turn round n c if i'm following, then she continues running around.wonder wat this means? (hide and seek gua...)
2nd is the lick mode, she'll lick ANYTHING. toes, fingers, floors, carpets...u name it.hope all the licking won't upset her stomach though. especially licking floors...
3rd is the bite mode, she'll bite anything she walks into: fingers, toes, her own house, carpets. i think she might be changing her teeth so i gave her my teddy bear to bite.
last but not least- the sleep mode. Whenever she's sleeping NOTHING can wake her up, not even food. guess all the playing and exploring had worn her out.
the lil fella's sleeping downstairs now while i'm typing away hehe, better go check on her."
LOL!!
i was so noble i gave her my teddy bear to bite!! xD
the diary was written in the most simple and straight forward manner. makes me sound like some 3rd grader. iiisssshhh.
i posted the entries in a puppy forum and later on saved them into notepad files. these were the photos taken during then.
chang chang~!!
in case you didn't know, her full name is Maxine Chua Soo Chang.
yesh, she's family =)
she did this alot when she first came. now she's just too big to balance on my thighs lah. sad.
my teddy bear.
omg, i luuuuurve her to bits la. *sQuISSHHH*
i know the day will be inevitable...so i'll make sure that for now we will create many many happy memories together =)
lil fella is sleeping downstairs now, gonna go check on her ;)
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6 comments:
Yeah... live life as if tomorrow will no longer be here.
Nothing is worst than having regrets >.<
And I'm doing fine here. Just got retrenched and hired back by the same company lol!
And how's your interview?
She;s so so cute!! How big is she as an adult? My girl's quite a monster now that she's big, but still love her to bits too
js: u got retrenched?? 0_o n they hired u back for the same position??
interviews were scary...d other day got interviweed by a manager,lawyer and director at the same time T__T
sue lin: i think she's twice the size she was!lol. and u have a dog?? 0_o what breed?? i haven't seen her pics!
Oooh i didnt read ur comment earlier on Jay Shen! Well great that u got rehired! =)
Wow Soo Imm how did that interview go? Sounds super scary! Still pretty small la Maxine! So so cute!
My girl's a terrier mixed something, picked her up from the road, i only blogged about her once almost 3 years ago omg! Will do another dog post soon =)
http://baybeetea.blogspot.com/2006/05/puppiessssss.html
sue lin: it IS SCARYY lol! it went on for one and a half hour and they asked me all kinds of questions like "what do u think is the most important attitude for this job?" or "what is criticism to you?"
brain dead after i came out >.<
omg the puppies sooo cuuute!!
blog abt ur girl~! i wanna see how she looks now :D
So funny that they rehire me for the same job. = ='
But I took another instead, snub them kao kao. Now I handle their pay LOL!
I think the interview is a bit too long la. But then I had an interview which lasted 5 hours hahahaha!
So how now?
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